I love my daughter, Madyson. She is an amazing child who is growing closer and closer to God every day. I love watching her worship Him. She just loves to lay on her back and be in His presence. Believe me, that kid is listening in to hear the still small voice of God. There have been times when she will just be laying down and when she comes up, she is about to burst with excitement about the things God has shown her. These things have been mind blowing, things that I have longed to see and hear as well.
It is an awesome thing as a parent to see that all of the life lessons, all of the bible stories, and all of the prayers have not been in vain. There have been times when I have weeped over her because I could see he heart growing hard towards God. She wanted to know why she was the only person she knew who didn't have a daddy. She was mad that her Grandma moved back to Colorado. She had also been angry that I moved her from there where all her family was to a place where we knew only a handful of people. All she would hear me say is that God had called us here and if He called us here, He would work everything out. To a 5 year old, she expected things to happen a lot quicker than they were.
God is so faithful though. He has been there with us through everything and finally has put us in a place where we are flourishing spiritually. We have found a church home. It took us almost 2 years but I can see now that if we had been at Bethany Worship Center from the beginning, we wouldn't have been ready for it. There were things God worked us through so we could appreciate this amazing place. He was molding and shaping me and sanding some of my rough edges in order to be a servant at BWC. It is a place where me and both of my girls enjoy being and growing in God.
The dilemma in every other place was that I would like it and the kids couldn't stand their class or they loved their class but I just wasn't really getting fed from the pulpit. I still have friends from each of those places though that have helped me sharpen myself and I hope I have done the same for them. So really, there is no regrets, just joy for being in a new place, a new season.
To be truthfully honest, I was hoping that I would be back in Colorado by now. Those were my plans though, and not the plans of the Father. With my mom planning to move back at the end of June, I remember telling God that if He didn't want me to be in Colorado, He would have to take my desire to go back away, and He would have to bring me to a church where I could plug in and really be a part of a body again. Little did I know God was already at work.
We had some friends that we met when we first moved to Dallas who had moved a little more North to a town called Allen. They had found the church through a flyer the church sent out about having healing services. They began attending and realized their heart and the pastor's heart were alike. Every time we were around them, they would talk about the awesome things God was doing and how their kids were enjoying it. For some reason, I remember them talking about it but I really wasn't that interested. That was my fault, not being sensitive to the Holy Spirit. Thank God my mom was. She told them we would go and visit one Sunday.
We finally made it there and it wasn't at all what I had expected. It was in an elementary school and had maybe about 50-75 people there. From the way our friends were talking, I thought this place would be packed. God was so moving in that place and you could feel it! I love the way God works though. He takes every preconception we have in our mind and tosses it out the window.
It was I think about the third service there, one of the older ladies who attends came to where I was sitting and grabbed my hand and led me up to the front. I had noticed her the week before because she stood up and gave a word from the Lord. The pastor was praying when she and I went to the front but he knew the drill. He came to a stopping point and then gave the mic to sister Mary. (Powerful woman of God.) She began praying over me and then had a word for me that I had the same call as my mother but greater...talk about intimidating! She said that the Lord was going to put me into ministry soon. I wanted, dates, times, and occurences but that was all she spoke. Then she annointed my head with oil...not the way I've seen, where she takes a little dab and puts it on my fourehead...she took the bottle over my head and dumped it into my hair! I would have paid to see my own face when she did that because that is not what I was expecting.
It makes me laugh to think about how quickly God settled us into BWC. I am so thankful that He led us to such an awesome place to serve and grow. From the very first day we set our foot into that place, my mom knew that is where the Lord wanted us to be. I think God did that so she could be at peace knowing we would have such an awesome church family to help us through her move. They have all helped my girls too. Madyson and Adeenah love their church family and never hesitate to give a hug to any church member. Those girls know they are safe, they are home. I needed that peace of mind for myself too. God knew what He was doing. He answered my prayers when He sent us to BWC.
He answered my heart's cry as a mother to bring Madyson to a place where there is no fear but only love from the children's pastors. It is a place where they are teaching and mostly confirming all those things she heard from a mom she wasn't sure she could trust. She is learning that God is her Father and He will never leave her or forsake her. She is also learning that He is real, He hears her prayers, and He will answer her.
He answered my cry as His child to bring me to a place where I can be a part of such an awesome thing He is doing! I have since joined the worship team, which is such a blessing! I have been able to sing songs to Him that I had only sung in private to Him. He is giving me spontaneous worship songs. I have longed to be used by Him in this way for quite some time. He has shown me, in very REAL ways how much He loves me. I also have seen Mary's word come to pass in different parts of my life as well. It is indescribable what God is doing. I can't wait to see what is next!
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